Getting to know you

Dear New!Shiny Blog,

(and whoever else it may concern)

I feel we should start our new relationship off free of secrets. So, I have a few confessions to make.

I had already committed myself to a blog before; twice, really. And both times, it seems, we (the blogs and I) got off on the wrong foot and we ended up going our separate ways.

I will not lie to you, I was to blame in both instances and I take full responsibility.

My first blog was this cute little thing on LJ. All my friends had their own so I thought, hell, why not? We had a nice little relationship going.  He was always there to listen to my personal rantings and, more often than not, teenage angsting. He never judged me though and I liked him if nothing more than for that very reason.

But schoolwork, the personal life, and a lot of other things got in the way. I grew up and we grew apart. I began outright neglecting and avoiding him.  Oh, I’d visit every now and then.  But only when I was sure no one else was watching. I’d stay at arms length and refused to give it the proper care and attention it deserved.

Worse, I refused to put it out of its misery. Even with the embarrassing teenage angst practically smearing every post, because it was MY teenage angst. I might not be proud of it, but I wasn’t about to disown it. And I haven’t, but I finally decided it was time to spread my wings and set it, too, free.

My second blog was made not too long ago. I wanted to start off fresh and get away from my embarrassingly too personal one, and give myself an opportunity to connect with the writing community. Maybe even post snippets of my work to get some helpful feedback.

Oh, but I’m getting ahead of myself. I do that sometimes. But I’ve felt so comfortable-perhaps we will get along rather well after all. Now allow me to explain.

You see, I’m a writer. An aspiring writer, I guess.

Why? Well ‘unpublished’ sounds so….tragically true.

Right- Back to the story of your predecessors. My first writing blog and I, we were hitting it off rather well, actually. Then, one not so dark and stormy night, I began writing. Generally speaking this should be considered a good thing, yes? I got 1,000 words flat on it, it was going good, and a plot was beginning to unfold.

What was the problem you ask?

The main character decided to lay claim to the name I’d chosen as my pseudonym at the time.

*Head-meet-Mr.Desk*

This is why normal people look at writers as if their just a tad nuts, you know. But you understand me, right blog?

*cue crickets in the background*

….Right?

Oh don’t be like that. Sure, I killed a blog simply because my character needed my name, but-but you’re different!

*dismissive wave* Besides, that probably won’t happen again.

Maybe…

No, pretty sure it won’t.

Why not? Well, Soleil is special to me. It was the name my mother was considering very seriously before she settled on my given one. Why not just use that? Oh, I have my reasons. I might discuss them with you when we get better acquainted. Don’t pout, you’ll find I have a bit of trust issues.

In fact, that’s one of the reasons. I’m a private person and not everyone I know outside the blogosphere needs to know what I write. I’ve also heard of some really, er, odd occurrences with some writers. I know I won’t be able to stop everything but I can at least try. Who knows, when and if I get published I may go with my given name.

Delete you in that circumstance? Oh, I should hope not. After all, PBW writes under many pseudonyms but she also has stated her “in-real-life” name plainly. Her blog is under Lynn Viehl though, one of her pseudonyms. So, unless another character pops up and decides to lay claim to my name again, you’ll be stuck with me.

I’m sure you and I will get along just fine. It probably won’t take that long for me to feel comfortable with you; you seem to be a very good listener.

No, thank you.

So let’s see what kind of a deal we could work out, shall we?

I promise to update you as much as I am humanly capable. Even if it’s just with a word count for the night or musings on a new show/book/song or thoughts on topics started by other bloggers whose blogs I enjoy reading. Not to mention I’ll probably fill you up with Thursday Thirteen posts and all that wonderful, random and meme-goodness.

Sincerely,

Soleil Noir